Recently I had to write a 200 word piece about what my favorite book was and why (and it was of course implied, that my reasons for liking it MUST be related to its connectih with medicine). And naturally, I wrote about "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows".
Naturally.
I won't deny it. I love the entire Harry Potter series (except Book 2. I do not love Book 2) and despite the fact that it is so cliched and filled with borrowed material from ancient cultures and myths, I love what it has come to symbolize and what it teaches. And it has a fantastically complicated and detailed plot line (there is stuff relevant in the very first book to things that are mentioned in the 5th, 6th and 7th books). I don't think anyone can deny that.
In any case, Harry Potter, especially the 7th book, has a very special connection to medicine (and to life in general), in that it discusses how Harry comes to accept the inevitability of death. Because how many people in the world do we know are comfortable with the idea of dying?
I think part of the reason that passing on is such a scary thought to us is partially due to the fact that many of us don't know what's beyond life, IF there is anything beyond life. And the idea of everything that we've ever known coming to an abrupt end and vanishing like smoke into thin air is terrifying. Because it's as if our existence is permanently stamped out of reality, as if we've never lived or walked on the earth, as if we've never been born. Our lives are dictated by our determined escape from death, our desperate plea to postpone what will come inevitably. Those who welcome death are not the ones who seek it as an escape, but have come to terms with what will happen after they're gone, and are okay with that.
I'm terrified of death in any way, shape, or form. Even for creatures which I loathe (like bugs and spiders and worms.... ew), seeing them get squished is not any more pleasant than seeing them crawl around (although I suspect it is partially because both prospects are equally revolting). I am deathly afraid (no pun intended) of losing anyone I know to the inevitable, especially if I think it's too soon for them to leave (and I will always think it's too soon for them to leave). Which makes me wonder if I'll ever be able to deal with death, when I am struggling so hard to enter into a profession that is full of it.
And then I think of Harry Potter. The brave (albeit fictional) boy who puts others before himself, who fights so that others don't have to fight, who walks towards Death with open arms like Ignotus Peverell (who is said to have greeted Death as an old friend and an equal).
I wonder if I could ever do that?